Yesterday when I got to the QQ and chated with my friend, I saw one of my friend's intruduction, which reads" coming 30". It is the saying that when you have had  your 20 birthday, you are coming 30~ Oh, no. next year when I at home, I will have my 20 birthday! I am horrify and worry about myself.

Day and day past, I have so many thing to do but no time for love... I don't know whether it's good or not. My classmate is 17 years old and always tells me that she wants to have a early love. But I think I have missed the time and nothing can change. No time for love... No one to love... No one love me...

Many times I wish I don't have to take so many responsibility. But how can I change this? There is no chance for me to choose. My duty is accepcting and acomplishing...

Wish I can get a good mark in the exam~ 

Actually I always feel uncertain about myself , about my future. Recently, I am thinking about what is confidence? Is it the convince that you will be sucessful at last? Or just think that you are able to do everything? I have seen so many people that are considered to be confident, but most of them, in fact, neither sucessful nor capable. So I wonder where their confidence come from? I don't know.....

Just try to be that kond of person, I feel tired and ... Because I am not so capable, because I am worry about my future. I am losing my confidence...I feel... try try and try

When weekend comes,I always have no mood to study~ Yesterday I got up at 9 o'clock, so early,ur... to attend a meeting. And then my movie time was on. I had fininshed 3 movies when I realized I had to go supper. So a brief supper took me 15minutes, movie time went on. I couldn't stop until I finish all(Totally 5). Then I kept on low spirit for study and chatted with my friend till 2o'clock.

Today the dispirited time goes on. After getting up at 10, I prepared the chicken soap and had a happy time with Lisa. Now I am sitting in front of my computer to download the movie again. I even know that I will have the maths test on Wednesday and physics next week. But I still keep on wasting my time. Am I mad? I just want to calm down and have a quite time to study, but actually I find that it's impossible to achive on weekend. God... I begin to worry my test. And my GRE,too. I haven't read the book for couples of days. Can I finish it before the winter vacation?? I wonder... Oh! What can I do to change the situation??? Hope tomorow is a new day. So my spirit will come again and hope I can do well in my study... 

After having a 3 hours' class,I went back to my domistry,tired. I can't even have a rest because I have to finish my PE task. Ok,800-meter-running isn't an easy task,but I actually finished it. Tired,tired,tired,I still have to have a meeting. Though I didn't want to attent this boring meeting, it's the Party's order.

Very unluckyly, the planned tennis match was cancled because of the dam match. I couldn't see the handsome boy... Wuwuwu...... Then, the most unlucky thing happened. When I was riding in the campus, a bike suddenly hit my bike and totally ruin my bike! When I was taking my bike to the repairing place, I felt that I was so lonely that I even haven't a person who can help me when I was in a trouble. Sometimes I think that my life is lack of something. I don't know how I can change the situation. I want but I can't. I have talked to my roommate, they did advice that I should try once again. But I really can't accept anyone. I don't know what is the proplem with me. Opps...

When so many bad things happened, I suddenly remember that today is Friday......

When I change my major into physics,I really didn't think about the present situation. In my mind,my classmates will be a group of people who love physics and discuss every problem they meet together. I don't mean that the present isn't like that,but it just surprise me that there are so many cracy people here~One guy claim that he will win the Nobel Price before his thirty years birthday.And what he is doing is standing in front of the door and think of the physics problem.Another guy is a fat boy with huge confidence.He really brings a lot of fun to us.Beacuse he is named"luoxi" and like to smile with awe. So we all call the smlie "The smile of Meng luo xi niu". If you think this is just a funny people, you are totally wrong. He will express his life with all the physical theories. For example, in our conclution, if he is in love with a gilr,he will talk to the girl with the theory of relativity;if he want to propose marriage,he will tell you the theory of unition. You can never know how cracy he is. There are so many cracy guys that I can show all to you. Actually, this class is a group of cracy people.But just like what I have pictured, they all cracy about physics and want to contribute themselves to the physics world.

Maybe in other people's eyes,we are all abnormal. Because we are thinking about the problem that seems far from us.But it is our choise.I don't doubt that in every physics people' heart, there is pure love of physics.Though some guys say they will do the other jobs that are not related physics. I like this class more even there are so many odd men. 

Now I am hard working in my GRE test.I learn multitudes of new words,even some of which aren't used by local people.I just can't figure out that why I have to do so.But I do know that if I don't, I will lose my chance.So I still work hard to remember all the new words.But it's really a difficult job.If I can finish it,I will appreciate myself as the greatest people in the world~haha I have decided to be the greatest people~~~Competition is fierce,we all know who will win at last.As a result,we must qualify ourselves.
Maybe some people think that it's a little early to prepare for the test,but I have no time.I must finish the test as soon as possible to save time for my lab work.I don't think I have ability to get a very high mark.If I want to be special,I must own something special.Lab work experience is a good promise.And I like to go to the lab to see how research is going.It can open my mind and help with my future work.
Oh,I am getting tired.Sleep for a while...

After I went through my first year in Fudan,I really feel that I have changed a lot.Beside the appearent,I think I will prefer to talk about my ideas about my future,my life.If you ask me what can we learn in the university,I will tell you two words: arrangement and independance.

Before I went to university,I don't think I had really planed something for myself.I just listen to my parents,my teachers and made the decision.Though the decision seemed to be in my hands,it dosen't.Before I made it,there had been so many suggestion that made me to that point.But now,I can make my real own decition.They,my parents and my teachers,just give some advices and the power is on me.I can plan my future and my life now.And more important I know how to picture my life.From many people I learn a lots things that I can't learn in the books.I will talk to my parents and say my idea to them.Of course they will give me advice,but they won't control me any more.They explained that they did that before because they didn't think I have qualifyed myself to make the important decition.Now they admit my ability and allow me to do it.

Though I think sometimes I depend on somebody,I begin to suit the life alone.I will care myself,arrangr my time,or even be an advicer of other people~about love,strange_isn't it~I can do lots of things that I can't do in the past.I think this is called independance.

I really have got lots in my first year.But now I am still a freshman.I must keep learning~trying and seeking.I have a clear goal and have courage to achive it.So guys,A ZA A ZA Fighting! 

Yesterday is the second mid-autumn day which I couldn't spend in my home.I really have a great fun because all of our Shanghai Guys get together and visit the Chenghuangmiao and see the exhibtion of the super design.Actually,I just walked around but didn't figure out most of the design.Some of them are pretty amazing.So a day end up with a big meal in Sazairiya.After 45minutes' waiting,we can have a seat and enjor the delicious food.Ok,night came and we back to Fudan have our night Party.We played and talked for almost 3 hours.The moon is ignored.

But what I really want to say is that I still miss my home my family very much.I miss my cousins,my aunt and uncle......I think they miss me,too.I wish them to be healthy and happy.Though without me they will feel some sad,especially my parents,they still have their life.Oh,again I miss them......That was my mid-autumn day.